Creating a New Self-Image for the New You

Self-image is how you see yourself. This may be how you see yourself physically or your opinion of who and what you are. How we see ourselves creates a vibration or frequency that determines what we will attract to us and create for ourselves in our life.
“Self-image is the mental picture, generally of a kind that is quite resistant to change, that depicts not only details that are potentially available to objective investigation by others (height, weight, hair color, etc.), but also items that have been learned by that person about themself, either from personal experiences or by internalizing the judgments of others. A simple definition of a person’s self-image is their answer to the question “What do you believe people think about you?”~ Wikipedia
Have you ever stopped to examine the thoughts and images that you have about yourself and who you think you are? This image may change from year to year depending on what happens in your life; if you are experiencing health issues, you may begin to see yourself as weak or sick, which affects your whole being. Or if your health declines, you may become determined to get to the root of the issue, heal yourself and you may see yourself as indestructible and determined, as well as strong. It all depends on your response to the issue that arises and your attitude. Other factors that may influence your self-image are your aging process, your financial status, your work and purpose in the world, where you live, as well as your relationship status, whether you’re a new mom, single or divorced. The externals of our world are always changing. What we ideally need to create is an internal self image that is consistently positive, loving, feels good and is in harmony with the world and everything in it.
Take a moment and write down in your journal or on a piece of paper all of the positive thoughts and ideas you have about who you are. Respond also to the question, “What do you believe people think about you?”
Now write down any negative thoughts you have about who you are and what you are experiencing in your life as well as what you believe others think of you.
We can always change our self-image, we just need to be aware of what it is. Be honest as you write everything down, even if it feels uncomfortable.
How to Create a New Self Image
It’s time to create a new self image! The right self-image is critical to your success. Now that you have written down both the positive and negative aspects of who you think you are and how you see yourself, I want you to make a big X over the paragraph or sentences of all of the negative words you wrote down about you. Write the opposite of what you wrote as being your negative qualities. Complete your list so that everything is positive. Now add to your list all the qualities that you want to develop. Think of the amazing role models in your life or the people whom you admire and their attributes, and add those to your list. Once your list is complete, take a blank piece of paper and with a magic marker, write down all the qualities in a list and tape it to your wall. I have 40 positive qualities on my list. Feel free to add to it as you think of more. I have the word human up there to state that even though sometimes I get frustrated, angry or irritable, or other uncomfortable emotions that I express, I am human and it’s ok! For the next 3 weeks or 21 days, say out loud, “I AM” and then read all the attributes on the list.
Along with this list, create a visualization of yourself as you would like to be, this new person you are becoming. See how you are dressed, that your eyes are full of light, and you are smiling, see yourself as embodying all of those qualities on your list. Perhaps you can visualize specific scenes, such as yourself speaking on a stage, or bicycling on a mountain trail, or signing a book you wrote for a long line of people, or swimming in the ocean, or whatever it is that you want to be doing or creating in your life. Visualize those images over and over again for 21 days and keep going with it.
Positive self-talk is another factor to transforming your self image. When you speak about yourself to others, if you notice that you put yourself down or if you speak negative words about yourself, say out loud, “Cancel, clear, delete” and then say positive words about yourself. Continue this practice and you will notice a change. Along these lines, it’s also a great practice to speak only positive words about others.
Self-care is how you treat yourself. Do you have a fitness routine? Are you getting into nature regularly? Do you take classes and courses in what interests you? Do you treat yourself as you would like to be treated? Begin to pour love onto yourself and buy yourself those flowers, new sheets, get your hair done beautifully, plan that long hike with a friend, book that cruise, take that photo class, learn to make jewelry, study Spanish, buy that rug, take guitar lessons, do that 30 day detox program, dine out with friends and invest in yourself. As you treat yourself like a Queen or King, you will feel your confidence growing. As you support and encourage your Self, you will feel the love you crave.
Just keep going. Keep doing it. Transformation takes time. Bigger transformations take more time. Creating a new you takes a strong desire to experience something different that you have in the past. You must be at that place where you are so done with the old patterns that you are willing to change like never before and not in a desperate way, but in a determined way. You know the life you want is right there, within reach, and you CAN do it!
Our Higher Self and God sees us as magnificent and beautiful beings who are already perfect without any judgement on our actions and behavior. When we stop judging ourselves and move into a place of self-acceptance, accepting all of who we are, we can get over the self-hatred and shame and just work on improving ourselves continuously with love and support.
So who do you want to be? Take care not to limit yourself. You can be a humanitarian and a teacher and a cook and a world-traveller and a painter. There is so much available to us! Enjoy this process of becoming, add to it, love yourself through all of it. Be bold and creative, make adjustments as needed. Be playful and compassionate. You deserve the very best that life has to offer, because you are a beautiful light in a body that has come to earth to experience whatever you want. Become the Queen and King that you are, magnificent and regal.
Blessings on your path!

Life Cycles & Oneness Consciousness

In all of life on earth there exists cycles of nature. The human life is no exception. We start out as little seeds in the dark (the womb), we have a period of gestation until we are ready for our next phase. The little seed grows in the dark, undergoing a time of struggle as it pushes its way up toward the light. Then the little seedling’s head pops out of the dark soil and the sun shines upon the little green bud. There, once the light draws it upward, growing its roots and stalk, and shines on its leaves, it begins to grow and grow until a flower opens, unfurling its precious petals one at a time until it realizes its full potential and blossoms into all its glorious wonder. After its time in the sun, the petals dry up and fall, one at a time, back to the earth, as does the entire plant, when it reaches the end of its cycle of life, it experiences the death. During the death cycle, its essence returns to whence it came from and a new beginning emerges out of the ethers, into the soil and the cycle begins again.
We humans experience many death and rebirth cycles in our lifetime. Where are you in your cycle? Although the death cycle feels the least enjoyable, it is a necessary part of our process. Think of each cycle as an opportunity to move up another circle of a spiral that opens into wider and wider circles. This is the pattern of human evolution. It is necessary for an old part of us to die so that a new us can be born. You may mourn that old you that you no longer are, your youthful self, your single self, your mother self, there are many stages that we move through in this journey of life. Let us look forward to the reinvention of ourselves on every level through each of these cycles. Just as we mourn what we feel we have lost or are losing, we can welcome what we are to become. Take a woman who finds out she is pregnant and begins to feel the loss of her freedom, which is a natural part of being a single woman. She can mourn the loss of her single self but will welcome her blossoming into full motherhood and moving beyond caring for herself alone. Now she who was once one, divides and becomes two. She will never be the same again.
Life is a beautiful and challenging design all at once. Fast forward and now the same woman who 18 years later has raised her child, when the child leaves home, she feels that pang in her heart at the emptiness of the nest, yet now she has regained her freedom when she is older and knows the value of how she can fill those hours with her own soul’s longing of how it wants to express itself. It is her time now and whatever creative endeavor she chooses is hers to decide. We can always reinvent ourselves. Where once we were a corporate staffer, now we can become an artist. Most people get stuck into one way of being and they don’t want to change or they don’t know how. Life always gives you that choice of becoming who your soul urges you to be in its many layers of varied expression. The process can be scary and it can be beautiful. Honor where you are in the cycle of life and death. Even at 70 you can experience a rebirth and made like new, the choice is yours.
Each new phase energetically lifts you upward on your Ascension path into greater awareness. Simply surrender to the flow of the Divine river of Life. With greater awareness comes alignment with Divine consciousness, where we come to “know” our true selves and move beyond the mind and the body and into the oneness of being. It is natural for us to be in the more egocentric state when we are young and beautiful. But if you look at the grand design of the human lifetime, as we age, we are asked to cast off the ego mind and let go of the attachment to the beauty of the body, in its perfection and begin to see through the eyes of our heart, knowing that we are beautiful no matter if the body is perfectly formed or if it is wrinkled and the shape is different. Parts that were once firm are sagging and the vibrant color of the skin fades. The flower never judges its wilting leaves and laments at the loss of its perfect petals, so why should we? The focus no longer has to be on what it once was, it is natural for us to move beyond our self, and come to care not about the body beautiful, or concern ourselves as much with materialistic matters, but care more for the spirit, the essence of the soul in the body and to make sure that all of our brothers and sisters are cared for, not just our selves. We are all connected through our spirit, our hearts by the One Universal heart.
There comes a time in our life cycle when, if we cultivate it, we have concern that all of us, the entire population of the planet, including our precious animals, insects, minerals, plants and Mother Earth are cared for because we come to know the oneness of our existence. We understand the interdependence and interconnectedness of all of life as a harmonious web of life, woven together with a needle of grace and thread of perfection. This time of caring for all of life beyond our self is the embodiment of the 7th chakra, the Crown chakra, or Sahasrara, which translates to a thousand petals (of light). It is at the 49 year mark that this chakra for the spiritual aspirant, or anyone who serves God, becomes fully developed. We can become attuned to the needs of the One Family under the One Sun and Moon on this Earth. We come to realize that we are all the same as each other, no matter our race, our sex, our preferences, we are each other. What I do to you, is the same as what I do to me and vice versa.
In each lifetime, as the wheel turns, we come back as someone we have not been before, experiencing new circumstances, lessons and blessings, so that we can come to know all of it.  If I had murdered in one lifetime, I may experience being killed at the hand of my victim in the next. If I ruled as a selfish king, hoarding all the gold to myself, in the next lifetime I may come back as a penniless slave under the rule of a wretched leader. If I chose a short lifetime and died as a baby, in the next I may live to be 105 years old. We all get to experience what it feels like to receive the consequences of our actions and come to know all sides of the coin.
If you were born with karma, which is most of us with the exception of some of the children being born now, you will have to clear it in this lifetime or the next to move up to the next level on your evolutionary pathway. And sometimes, that clearing can feel quite brutal and not seem to make much sense. Know this…once the karma is cleared, it is done, so do your best to dust yourself off and move forward, knowing that you now have a clean slate. Life is about letting go, so learning how to let go is a valuable gift! Just as the flower does not cling to the dried up petal, and releases it to the wind, so too must we release and surrender over and over, back into the flow of the river of life. To learn the art of letting go is to suffer less and less. And always, always practice gratitude for what you have now, right here, in this moment, even if it comes to your very last few breaths, thank you, thank you, thank you for this life….until you return to the essence of spirit.

And for those of you who are concerned and outraged with what the American government is doing and (has done for decades), know that the individuals who are responsible will be paying for every last decision and action they are making. What can we do besides vote them out? We can “Do all the good you can, To all the people you can, In all the ways you can, As long as ever you can.” ~ John Wesley

Opening Your Sacred Space – The Morning Ritual

The full moon of April 28th was a potent one. Its energy heralded a turning point for all of us in 2018, whose first four months helped us untie knots to free ourselves up from that which entangles us and keeps us tied to the past. From January to April was a time to see what needed to be put out to the curb and released from our lives in order to make room for the incredibly creative time of something new and completely different to take shape within our life’s ever changing landscape.
When we create, we tap into the energy of the Divine, or Creative Source of all that is. When we are in our creative flow, we lose track of time as we forget about our self, we are immersed in the river of Creator energy that feels joyful, productive and much larger than us.
Every morning you can tap into this creative energy by opening up a sacred space, where you connect with your Higher Being, Mother Father God, your celestial team and set your intentions for what you wish to create. Once you open to this sacred space, anything can happen, you become unlimited because you are accessing the energy of Source, which is in itself, unlimited by nature.
Here’s how to do it: Create an Altar – Have a dedicated area in your home for an altar. An altar is just a space, either a table top, a shelf, a mantle (I have mine on a fireplace mantle) where you can put objects that represent your sacred connection to the earth and the Universe or God. Place objects on the altar that represent all the 4 elements, Air, Fire, Water, Earth. For example, I have a feather for air, a box of matches and a candle for Fire, a dolphin for Water and Crystals for Earth. But you can get creative and put anything you want on your altar. I also have family photos to represent my Ancestors, mala beads to represent the Divine, a silver cup that was my mothers, an angel vase to hold flowers. a small brass Buddha, which all sit on a beaded tapestry. And I have cards with inspirational messages that I pick from time to time. Take you time choosing carefully the items you wish to place on your altar and keep the flowers fresh. You can say this space is the heart of your home, because it is a space dedicated to your Spirit, which resides in your heart.
Every morning when you rise, choose a time to open your sacred space to your day. (I carry out my bathroom duties and have a cup of tea first…) Then stand before your altar and light incense or a candle or both. Recite a prayer, placing your palms together at your heart center. Within the prayer you are connecting to Source, setting your intention and expressing your gratitude. You can also ask for healing for loved ones or all of humanity. You are also asking for protection and guidance. Here you can state affirmations as well.
For example, “I connect with and invoke (call in) my Higher Self, the Divine Mother and Father God, my Guides, Angels, Archangels, Ascended Masters, Master Teachers, Master Healers and Nature Spirits. I connect to All that is. Wash me in white light and clear my energy field of any lower energies. My intention for today is to walk with a peaceful heart and to be loving to all I meet. I ask that you please guide my thoughts, words and actions. Thank you for this day and the many blessings on my path. Lokah Samastah Sukhino Bhavantu. (Which means, “May all beings everywhere be happy and free, and may the thoughts, words, and actions of my own life contribute in some way to that happiness and to that freedom for all.” I ask for the Highest Guidance and Protection to come through. It is easy for me to hear my guidance, my Higher Being flows effortlessly through me. Thank you.”
You can change your intentions daily, as you wish, you can create new affirmations, depending on what you are working to strengthen within your being. And if you don’t have an altar and it doesn’t appeal to you, then just connect and say your prayer.
The morning ritual of opening your sacred space is a game changer because it connects you with all the power of the Universe to create that which your heart truly desires. Setting intentions are where we access that power. Honoring your heart and your Light is essential to living a heart-centered life that feels good. This ritual will help to ground you into the present moment and remind you of who you truly are, a magnificent being of Light!
That can be your entire morning spiritual practice or you can then go onto do yoga, chant, meditate, breath work, walk the dog, dance or whatever else helps you stay centered within your spiritual heart. In these days of chaos on earth, we need our sacred practices to assist in grounding and centering us.
Honor Your Light, because you are a beautiful light being that deserves the very best from life. Disappointments and hardship will befall us all, but the Light is resilient and the more we focus on the Light, the more it will grow. The Light is Love and Truth.

Cultivating Your Inner World

In this time of major change on the planet, it’s important to take time to cultivate your inner world. Your inner world is the foundation from where you create your life, it is connected to your soul and spirit’s deepest desires and purpose.  Although it is not tangible, your inner world exists only inside of your Self, it encompasses all of your dreams and creative longings, all of the experiences you wish to have and it is connected to everything in the Universe, it is pure consciousness. It is the place where you find your equilibrium, where you are centered and grounded within your True Self. It is your place of power, your connection to Source and where you can manage your energy and the vibration and frequency which you are sending out to the Universe. This is how we create, with our thoughts, visions, words and actions. When we tend to our inner world, we feel fulfilled and whole, the natural feeling that bubbles up from this well spring is joy and contentment. Our outer world is a reflection of our inner world. Spend time building your inner world and your outer world will flourish, like a garden that you tend to, sweetly nourishing the bulbs and seedlings day after day which become luscious, rich and beautiful flowers.
In this society through the media we are taught to consume, we are taught to find our pleasure from external sources. Most people find temporary pleasure through the five senses; eating, drinking, smoking, shopping, sex or you name it, what brings you pleasure? To do any of these things is normal, everyone eats and has sex and buys things, it’s when these activities become addictions that are controlling our behavior that it becomes a problem. It is only when we seek out pleasure from these external sources alone that we will suffer. Addictions are false pleasures, and they do not add meaning to our lives, most of these addictions end up taking our power from us. True and lasting pleasure comes from working on oneself. Whether it is cultivating your craft, learning a new skill, embarking on a new course of study, improving your physical body through training or practices, meditating, writing, journaling, reading, spending time in nature, or creating art or music. When we spend our energy in this way, we see results in our lives that are meaningful and fill us up from the inside. The same can be said for the work we do with our children, spending hours of time with them to help them learn and grow. We can apply this to any relationship we have where we invest our hearts, time and energy that produces a truly intimate connection to another human being or pet where we are sharing our selves and our love. We can feel the difference between what is truly meaningful in our lives and that which is false pleasure. We may embark on the false pleasure anyway, most everyone has an addiction big or small, but do not be fooled by it, be aware of its true nature.
There is a difference between the people who create from their inner world and those who merely consume from the external world to fill themselves up. There are many people who don’t know how to connect to the beautiful light of their spirit inside of them. Without the connection to Spirit, life has no meaning. In a meaningless life, a person is just going through the motions, there is no connection, just a void. People will consume to try and fill that void. But it is in the beautiful center of your heart that you will find the joy and happiness you seek. Everything from the outside carries meaning only when it touches your heart. External consumption can only fill you temporarily, it will leave you feeling strangely empty and disconnected. To feel connected you must spend time and build from inside of your Self.
The conscious mind with its never ending stream of thoughts overrides our inner world of consciousness. For the conscious mind, the outside world tends to occupy our attention and does not let us venture inward and experience our consciousness. It is only when the mind becomes quiet and silent that we become aware of this consciousness, this inner world. We have to carve time out to connect to that place of pure consciousness. We can do it in dreamtime, when our conscious mind disconnects and our Higher mind takes over. And we can do it in meditation, which is a beautiful vehicle for navigating our inner world. In the stillness of meditation, we quiet the conscious mind and connect with our Higher mind and Higher Self. This is the place where we can connect to our inner power, our connection to God Source. This is where we can come every day to change our vibration and energy. When our energy is aligned with God Source, we feel powerful, happy, free, mentally strong, confident, we have a positive attitude and we are setting our self up for success in our outer world.
We can all learn how to master our own energy.  Let me show you how to change your energy with this visualization exercise… Think of the ideal life that you would like to create, if you like, take out a piece of paper and write down your answers to create your vision… Now take three deep breaths, and take your awareness into your heart center, right in the center of your chest. Imagine or visualize a beautiful bright light flickering there and with every breath, the light grows bigger. Keep breathing until you feel your whole body relax. Now see the light radiating out in all directions and affirm that you are connected to your Spirit. I want you to imagine your ideal life exactly as you would like it to be, it may be how you are right now if you are happy, or it may be a different version of your life. Some aspects may remain the same and some may be different. Whatever your ideal life means to you, just take a few moments to visualize the perfect existence for you. Notice who you are with, what you are doing for work, and play, where you live and with whom? What are your favorite ways to spend your time and energy? How much money do you have? What do you look like in your body and appearance, what is your state of health? How do you feel?  Now that you have done this, imagine what that feels like in your body, feel the actual emotions of being in love, fulfilled, abundant, accomplished, engaged, peaceful and connected and whatever else you have dreamed up for yourself. Feel all of these feelings as very real and very powerful. Keep the breath flowing in your body. See your ideal life and bless it from your heart, feel it as already existing. Create the highest and best for yourself, without limitations. Good. Now how does your energy feel? Does it feel different than before you started the exercise? If the answer if no, then spend more time breathing, connecting and making your vision real within you. If the answer is yes, then you can see how the thoughts and visions you have created have affected your energy. What you think controls your energy. If you think negative thoughts, your vibration will be low. Once you think positively, you will feel your frequency rise. The key is to keep your vibration high on a consistent basis. This is one way you can change your energy to raise your vibration and build your inner world. By spending active time engaging in visualization to create the life you truly want to live, you are owning your power and taking charge of the direction you want to move your life in. This takes time, energy and a commitment to practice, but is well worth the effort.
Your inner world is also the place where you can come to gain insight about yourself and how you operate in the world, uncover your true feelings, meet your shadow self, connect with your inner child. It is the place where you can learn to forgive yourself and others. Where you can learn to let go of the past and choose to grow into your new self. The more awareness you have about who you are, why you behave in the way you do, what motivates you, what inspires you, the more control you will have over how you shape your life going forward. And ultimately, the more you connect with  your Higher Self and merge with the oneness and love of your Divinity, you will surrender to your True Self, and peace will be known.
The inner plane is where you can balance your chakras by bringing in light to these energy centers, to cleanse and rebalance them. In this place you can connect with your Guides, Angels and teachers from the celestial realms to help you with whatever it is you wish to understand at a deeper level and to transform within yourself. There is so much to be discovered in this Universe inside of You. And it’s free. You don’t need to buy a ticket!
The joy is always in the work, do the work and you come to know true pleasure. Journey inward, and come to know the True Self. Let your True Self build your sacred and beautiful life from the inside out.

2018…Charting A New Course

I know many people were happy to see the back end of 2017 and welcome the new year, bringing with it fresh HOPE. I barely know anyone who wasn’t affected by some serious challenges in 2017. Already the feeling of this year is much lighter. 2018 is a number 11 year.  In numerology the number 11 is a Master Number, as are 22 and 33, meaning it is of high vibrational frequency and works within the realms of creation. Master numbers possess great potential for learning and growth, and can bring major transformations in your life. Whereas 2017 was a number 1 year of new beginnings, with many people experiencing resets in the form of loss or change, now the transformation into what was lost gives way to our next creation.
                                        Painting by Vladimir Kush
I, like millions of others, watched Oprah Winfrey’s speech at the Golden Globes when she accepted her Cecil B. de Mille Lifetime Award. My soul was deeply touched as I witnessed the women in that room claim their power, spurred on by Oprah’s passionate stand for women who have had the courage to speak out against the powerful abusive male culture, declaring an end to the silence and a new day dawning on the horizen.  It’s amazing to be alive as a woman during this time, to see this monumental shift taking place after hundreds of years of repression and silence and submission. Now a tipping point has been reached, what has been building for so long, has finally broken free. Just like a dam bursting, allowing the waves of truth to gush forth, drenching the barren lands, so thirsty for what is right and good and true to take hold. I feel that this “Me too” movement will allow women’s voices, feelings, thoughts and ideas to be acknowledged as more credible and powerful and to be heard across all areas of life. The “Me Too” movement has followed on the heels of  the “Black Lives Matter” movement. No longer are the oppressed people of this earth;  women, African Americans, LGBT community, etc… going to sit down and take it. It is time for all our voices to be heard and acknowledged. It is a time for love to lead the way. Not to diminish the “Black Lives Matter” movement, but we all matter and we must start caring for all communities of people and accept people for who they are, and celebrate our differences.
Think of the flowers on this planet. There are so many different and beautiful flowers that God made. Some of my favorite flowers are roses, dahlias, zinnias, lilies, orchids, sunflowers, hyacinth, gladiola, peonies, begonias, African violets and there are so many more; daisies, daffodils, tulips, marigolds, iris, and on and on. Now, do we look at a flower and say, “I don’t like that dahlia because it does not look or smell like a rose! I want every flower to be a rose! Any flower that is not a rose is not a good flower. Only roses should be on this planet.” No, we appreciate the variety of colors, shapes, smells and textures, because they are all beautiful in their own way. God made all of those different types of flowers for us to appreciate and admire in the same way God made all different types of people. There are no two people exactly the same on this planet full of 7 billion people. How cool is that? We all have our different looks, shapes, colors, smells, languages, ideas, gifts, quirky habits, talents, voices, etc. Earth is one giant garden full of unique people who we can appreciate and marvel at as we come to know the different ways that each of us chooses to live our lives on this glorious planet.
I love to travel. When I was a little girl, I lived in India, surrounded by Indian women who wore beautiful silk saris, with jasmine flowers in their brown oiled hair, who preferred to walk barefoot, cook over an open flame outdoors and live a simpler life full of laughter.  The streets were teeming with families on bicycles, white cows, food stalls, sadhus, yogis, snakes in baskets, roadside temples with ochre colored paste for your forehead and elephant statues, and I came to know this marvelous place as India, with all of it’s raw beauty, delicious smells and ancient culture. Then I moved to Turkey when I was 4 and every day I would hear the call to prayer being broadcast from the speakers of the minarets of the Mosque near our home. I would see the rug weavers and copper pot makers and the men selling fresh, hot bread from a round tray they carried on their heads. The groups of men drinking very strong tea and smoking houkas in the coffee shops and the beautiful women with their heads adorned with scarves and traveling together. And lots of cats, cats everywhere, ok, that was a little weird…LOL!  And this place, I came to know and love as Turkey. So different than India but just as beautiful.  I was lucky to grow up as a child in these countries and experiencing the diversity first-hand. And my mother and father never said one bad word about anyone, they respected the people in these foreign lands and they taught me to respect them too. My father took hundreds of photos of all the interesting people and places and the world was a strange, mysterious and wonderful place, waiting to be explored.  Since then I have traveled to many other countries, lived for 11 years in Australia and spent time in several of the states of this country. Each has it’s own flavor and beauty, as well as challenges and energies.
I can’t imagine a planet where everywhere you went it was the same. We have enough of that happening with the homogenization of American stores like Pet Smart, TJ Maxx, Panera, McDonalds, Staples, Walmart, Target, Best Buy and more. I preferred the character and individuality of the personally owned stores rather than these large corporations that dominate creating a flavorless white-wash across this nation. You can’t even distinguish if you are in Toledo, OH, or Hoboken, NJ, the stores are all the same.
For the past year and a bit, we have had to watch our so-called Leader, The President of the United States, demonstrate a distinct lack of respect for women, minorities, the elderly, the poor, the disabled, foreigners, the environment, wild animals, domestic animals and basically everyone who is not in his immediate family. It has been ugly to say the least, although I’m not sure how much respect his wife gets either. His actions are not good, right and true. And it doesn’t feel good in our bodies, it is not harmonious, it is chaotic. We have had to stand by and witness this, day in and day out, like some horrible reality show gone wrong, and no one will fire the Producer, change out the cast and get the damn show off the air. It’s like our own American version of Clockwork Orange, where we are being forced to watch this horror show from our pried-open eyes. We have felt helpless at times, watching the horrific plot unfold and facing the reality that this man is not only inept, but dangerous. He does not appreciate diversity, he wants everyone to be the same, white, vanilla,  like him and he is basically saying he wants all the flowers on the planet to be the same flower. And that any flower that is not of his liking will be excluded, deported, fined, incarcerated or fired. It is diabolical, he has no true appreciation of life itself, because Life itself, by its very nature, is diverse. It is hardly believable as we see injustices taking place from the very group that are supposed to support and care for our people, our country. We can be the victims, or we can take charge as a people, to chart a new course for ourselves, and speak out as to what we will tolerate and what is utterly unacceptable. We, the people is a powerful phrase.
The new course we are charting has to include everyone, that means all of God’s children. Let’s allow everyone to be who they are and learn about and celebrate our differences. Let’s encourage the variety of flowers to grow in the garden of Mother Earth and value each other’s unique beauty. Let your voice be heard because no one is just like you. You are unique. Your voice matters. You matter. Speak out if you see something that is not right, take action and set in motion the wheels of change.  Get yourself to the voter’s box and cast your vote. This is how each of us can make a difference. There is one man and quite a few more powerful people at the top trying to strong arm us into swallowing an agenda that is not virtuous. But there are millions of us and if we each do our part, the sheer numbers will shift the tide into transforming our world into what we know to be right and true, where we honor and respect one another and allow each other to live our lives in peace. We must stand up for ourselves. We must take action, it is the only way. I am planning to march this year in the women’s march in Seneca Falls in New York. Last year during the march, I was in New Mexico with a very sick man who was intent on controlling me. I remember seeing the march on television and wishing I was there, marching arm in arm with my sisters about what truly mattered. Well, I broke free from the abusive man and now I can go to the march this year and you had better believe that I am going to be out there, freezing temperatures and all to let my voice be heard and stand up for what is right and good and true. The New day is indeed dawning and the light of the new dawn has never looked so bright.

Balancing the Light & Dark Within – Creator Consciousness


The world has become very unbalanced. As a global community, we are not living in a state of wholeness. Wholeness is defined as “the state of forming a complete and harmonious whole; unity” or “the state of being unbroken or undamaged”. Antonyms for wholeness are “illness, sickness, unhealthiness, unsoundness”. We are a sick society, broken and divided. We are too much in the dark, our light and dark aspects are imbalanced.

As human beings, we are comprised of Spirit, Heaven (Light) and Flesh, Earth (Dark). Light does not mean positive and dark does not mean negative, they simply represent opposites, or polarities. When we balance these polarities of both light and dark, we become “conscious” bringing more awareness to how we use our minds, to our behaviors and actions in the world and how our actions affect everything in the beautiful, intricate web of the world.

However, both the Light and the Dark aspects can become imbalanced, which leads to a negative expression of that nature. This will manifest as an external imbalance, in the larger world around us. The external world is a reflection of our internal world, which is why it’s so important for each of us to do our own work to be integrated and whole. There may be periods where we become imbalanced, where we live in this opposite for a while, so that we can move toward and learn what it truly means to be balanced, by first experiencing the imbalance.

A person who is imbalanced in their Light nature – too Light, is the Victim or the Bleeding Heart. They are needy, has constant guilt, is too meek, gets exploited/abused, feels helpless or hopeless and is too vulnerable. This is someone who has not realized their own power, value or worth. To balance this, a person must learn to stand up for themselves and come to understand their value and worth in order to harness and wield their power in a healthy way. They must learn not to become too self-sacrificing at their own expense. This individual needs to develop strong boundaries, not “leak” their energy and give their power away to others. They need to find their own “voice” and to exert their influence in the larger world around them, knowing that they are enough and that their voice matters. They must learn to use their new found power to transform the Victim into the Creator.

A person who is imbalanced in their dark nature and is too Dark, is The Abuser or Predator. One who is greedy, over-indulges in addictive behavior, is controlling, violent, overly-competitive, jealous, homophobic, racist, ruthless, and lacks an inner world. This is someone who misuses their power in order to get what they want at all costs and at the expense of others. They are disconnected from their own hearts and Spirit. To balance this, the individual must learn humility, compassion, respect, kindness, caring, seek to understand the other, assume responsibility for their own actions rather than blame, connect with their own hearts and connect with Mother Earth and the web of all life. They need to seek to become a Creator that loves life rather than a Destroyer, that annihilates everything in its path.

As you can see in the news in the U.S.A., some of the Abusers / Predators are being outed. However, the American government seems to be exempt from their predatorial behavior as they run rampant over the American people, enacting laws that serve the greedy few while the masses are left out in the cold. This cycle of Predator/Victim has been in place in the world for a very long time. Cast your mind back to the Kingdoms and the serfs in the Medieval era. It is really no different from those days. Remember, it is always darkest before the dawn. What is needed now, is for each individual to balance their dark and light nature, as well as their feminine and masculine energies, to overcome fear and to step into our Creator Consciousness. To honor the Divine Self within and use our free will to create something Beautiful from a place of love.

The Creator knows his/her power as a Master who walks on the earth, a Divine Being of Light in Human form. The Creator creates from a place of love, respect and compassion for all living beings, the environment and knows its connection to the great Spirit. The Creator works within the Laws of the Universe and is not victim to what is happening in the world, rather, they are harnessing their God-given power which was bestowed upon them, with intention, to create harmony and justice using free will.

To know balance, one can whole-heartedly ask the Universe this question, “What do I need to let go of to correct this imbalance?” In other words, “Where am I resisting? And what do I need to stop resisting for balance to be restored?” Resistance is fear, so whatever you fear you are resisting, which continues to draw that which you fear, toward you. For example, a person who is a victim is afraid of their own power, which they seek from others. The victim can let go of seeking power from outside of themselves. Once they cease to seek power from external sources, and look within themselves for the resources they seek, they will come to know the power that is within them, their own inner God-Self and the balance will be corrected.

God created the Universe and there are certain Spiritual Laws for us to abide by in order to live in harmony. When we understand, obey and respect these spiritual laws, we will know peace. That takes 7 billion souls doing this simultaneously. With this perspective, it becomes clear why we need to wake up, do the work and help each other. This subject is worthy of a book, which I’m planning on writing…

Once we become balanced and whole, and walk on the Earth as a Creator (not The Creator), it doesn’t matter what is happening around us, we can hold our center and make choices that support this balance. This is the goal… Balance and wholeness, love and harmony, creation and health. Balance equals harmony. Harmony equals Peace. And Peace is freedom. We all want to be free, liberated from that which binds us.

The Fall of the Patriarchy, The Rise of the Divine Feminine

These are powerful times. As we observe the “Me Too” movement unfolding around us and all of the allegations coming to light, we can recognize that we are watching the fall of the patriarchal society that has dominated and repressed the feminine and minorities for so long. The power and control model of the Patriarchal Society is beginning to dissolve. The patriarchy has ruled with fear to divide and conquer. The ensuing fear has resulted in divided nations, homes and minds. Greed has brought about a great imbalance in financial distribution and while a few horde the majority of the wealth, poverty affects the masses. This is not the design for the human race, there is enough for all the beings on earth to live healthy, abundant lives.
The fall of the patriarchy is a great and exciting time for those who have suffered from this oppression and abuse to watch as the walls crumble and the perpetrators and predators are exposed and charged with their crimes they have been getting away with. Justice is being served and there is much more that needs to happen. Those in the financial world and the governments and the educational systems, the legal systems and in every system that has abused its power need to be held accountable.
As Jupiter transits Scorpio, much that has been hidden in the darkness is being revealed. The Light is shining into the darkest recesses of all that has been the “status quo”, all the secrets are coming out and the truth is being shown. The dismantling of this old, outdated model is necessary to pave the way for the Rise of the Divine Feminine who is birthing the New Earth energies of grace, harmony, wisdom, abundance, peace, equality, justice and love.
During my sessions, I receive information from Guides, Angels and Ascended Masters through my Higher Self as I channel energy. The messages I have been receiving are that the new earth energy is much Lighter, it is not so heavy with burdens and lower vibrational emotions such as shame and guilt, blame and power struggles. These are the energies we are currently clearing as the great rebalancing of the Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine energies take place.
The Divine Feminine is to be revered and cherished, not dominated and controlled. When she is honored and respected, she will bloom like a rose and her magical healing elixir will unfold. Rebalancing needs to take place on both sides.
Now is a time of great healing for the feminine as her many voices are being heard. As her accusations are being validated. This is what she has waited for for so long, to be heard, seen, respected and valued. When a woman is abused but no one takes her seriously, when she is dismissed and even blamed, then the message she is being told is that she does not matter, she does not have worth.The feminine has been worthy all along. But in order to control her, she has been told that she is less than, she has been kept down, oppressed because man has feared her feminine power. Her voice matters and her experience must be honored. That is what we are seeing now.
It is also a time of healing for the masculine. A great disservice has been done to the masculine in all these years when boys were raised and told not to cry or show their feelings. When feelings are not allowed, they are pushed way down deep inside. These repressed feelings create shadow aspects that are hidden in the subconscious mind. When men explode in rages of anger and violence, their shadow aspects are expressing, all of the rage of not being seen, heard, understood and validated from a very young age are acting out in a negative way. We must teach boys from a young age that all of their feelings are ok to have, whatever they are. See them, hear them, and pay attention to their feelings. Validate their experience so that they may learn to trust. It is in this deeper communication and intimacy that we truly learn to understand one another. And it is only through understanding one another that we can truly love each other. This is one example of the way that harmony between man and woman will once again be restored on the earth plane, through balancing.
In his book, “True Love”, Thich Nhat Hanh writes, “Training is needed to love properly and to be able to give happiness and joy, you must practice deep looking directed toward the person you love. Because if you do not understand this person, you cannot love properly. Understanding is the essence of love. If you cannot understand, you cannot love. That is the message of the Buddha. If a husband, for example, does not understand his wife’s deepest troubles, her deepest aspirations, if he does not understand her suffering, he will not be able to love her in the right way. Without understanding, love is an impossible thing.”
How many times have you heard a man say that he doesn’t understand women? Then how can he love her? And the same is true for women not understanding men. If men can feel and women can be powerful, then we can correct the imbalance.
For the most part, men in Western society have been raised not to feel. How can a human being be human if he denys his own feelings? Feelings are the language of the heart, of Spirit. If he does not share his feelings, he is only living half a life. He is living from his head while his heart has no outlet for beautiful love-based expression. He is not less of a man because he feels, he is a whole man. Every person on the planet thinks and feels. There is an entire male culture on this planet of degrading and objectifying women that has been in place for far too long. This is the culture I grew up in. Somehow is was just transmitted to me that I was secondary to the man. Of course, not all men do this, but almost all men overlook this behavior.
Now is the time to realign to the true design of men and women living together showing mutual respect and honor toward one another.
The Divine Feminine seeks to heal the earth, to restore her. Beautiful and whole, Mother Earth is a living, breathing organism, she is the source of our very life! We are living upon her and she nourishes and feeds us. She has been raped of her minerals, and mined of her gold, polluted and mistreated. Acres of concrete have been layed upon her pores so that she cannot breath. Chemicals have been dumped into her waters and flesh. Her atmosphere has been compromised. Her lungs, (reefs and forests) have been damaged. This is our home. You would never see a bee polluting its hive because they know that their home sustains them. The entire colony of bees works to maintain the highest and best hive for themselves and their Queen. They all work together for the highest good of all. That is what humans need to learn to do. Work together for the Highest Good of All. That is why the Divine Feminine is now returning to lead the way into wholeness for all. She is bringing us back to Nature.
“Humans have peace, prosperity, spirit and knowledge when connected to Nature. The older matriarchal cultures were balanced and harmonic. The patriarchal cultures were ambitious, contentious and aggressive.
Around 5,000 years ago there was equality in Khemit (Kempt/Kemet) with temples to the Divine Mother – Hathor. The initiation into the higher knowledge was not for everyone and kept secret for the elite – priests, priestesses, scholars and initiates. These initiations were tests and trials to raise consciousness in both the sacred feminine and sacred masculine – in harmonic balance – in the purest form, to balance the left and right brain function, which opens to the sacred divine dimensions. (Patriarchy involves history, linear time, dogma, laws, rationality, waking reality and science. Matriarchy involves eternity, cycles of time, rituals, magic, altered states, arts, divination.)” Dr. ABD’EL HAKIM AWYAN, Wisdom Keeper of the Ancient Egyptian Mysteries.
There is so much wisdom for us to recover from the ancient cultures that knew how to harness the natural energies to raise consciousness and create peace. We can do this. We must first seek the truth, learn how to manage our own energy, then work together to create a world where we are all working for the highest good of all. We do this by raising our consciousness. We can create alternative solutions to our longstanding problems such as fossil fuel and utilize zero point energy. We can alter every broken system that is currently in place and make it work for us instead of against us. We must wrest our power back from the patriarchal rule. The Divine Feminine is returning, rejoice!

Speaking Your Truth

The truth is like a song. When you hear it, it has a certain vibration that resonates as being true. When we live our lives in accordance with our Highest Truth, then we are living in integrity. Integrity is defined as; the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness. The state of being whole and undivided.
Barbara De Angelis writes, “Living with integrity means: Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values. Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe.”
For many people, it is challenging to speak their truth because they are concerned about hurting other people or the consequences they may face if they do speak their truth.
Truth is the foundation from which we build our relationships. If we are not sharing our truth with the other, whether it is your brother, sister, husband, wife, mother, father or child, then you are not allowing true intimacy to manifest. When we speak our truth, we can create a real, intimate relationship with each other because we have a strong foundation.
If one has a feeling or emotion that is one’s truth and they know that by sharing those feelings and emotions that the person who is on the receiving end of their words may get hurt, there is often an unwillingness to share that truth. In this case, those thoughts, feelings or emotions may be downplayed, omitted or distorted into a lie, all to avoid the potentially negative reaction the other person may have to hearing the truth. Especially if you have told that person your truth before and things did not go well. Then there is a fear that is present that further prevents one from being completely honest. Sound familiar?
When we don’t tell our truth to avoid someone else’s negative reaction, both people pay the price. To be true to oneself is imperative to creating a happy, healthy life and relationships. If we are not speaking our truth, the other person will detect what you are saying on some level as false, because it carries a certain vibration. This creates shallow, insincere and fake relationships. Cracks form in the foundation and the falsity simmers and festers below the surface, threatening to explode like a volcano, or shake like an earthquake. Even if one’s intention is good, thinking, “I don’t want to say that to them because it will hurt them”, it is still robbing both people from having an honest relationship that results in both parties living their truth.
Often times if we swallow our truth, our bodies will express it in some way. A person may manifest a goiter in their throat, get migraines, low back pain or have digestive issues, because they can’t stomach their lives. The body doesn’t lie.
Once the truth is revealed, the other person has a firm platform from which to make their choice to how they respond. You cannot dispute another person’s truth. Truth is reality, It is their truth and that is that. But if a distortion of the truth is presented, then the other person does not have a fair playing field from which to base their choice on how they react or respond and further distortions are created in the relationship creating more imbalance and disharmony.
Once the truth is told, there is the next step of compromise in order to satisfy the needs and desires of everyone involved. But if one person continually suppresses their own needs and desires and gives in to the other’s needs, then an imbalance occurs and an unhealthy pattern is formed within that relationship. When one person gives more than the other, resentment builds and unhappiness creeps in. If people can communicate honestly and compromise fairly where both people’s needs are being met, then health is restored.
Speaking and living your truth requires you to be honest with yourself, look at your life and what you are creating without denial and illusion. It requires you to own your stuff and become an authentic person. This requires a person to work on one’s unconscious beliefs that create the self-sabotaging patterns in their lives. This is often the work of a lifetime, but it doesn’t have to be. It is always a choice involving personal accountability.
It’s important to take into account that people may not be telling their truth because they themselves don’t know their truth. They may not know themselves well enough yet or are incapable of being honest with themselves because the truth is too painful or it doesn’t fit their version of who they want to be. This is the real work and we must be compassionate with one another. It is more difficult to be understanding of a person who is consciously lying, manipulating and deceiving than it is to one who is dishonest because they aren’t aware of their truth.
Speaking one’s truth is best received when it is delivered from the heart rather than from an angry place. If you don’t speak your truth for a long time, and resentment and anger has been allowed to build, then quite often when the truth does come out it erupts with angry words that are spiteful and hurtful. So it is on us to understand what our truth is and speak it as soon as we know it so that we don’t get to that angry place. This is a delicate communication process that needs to be handled with care! And the more you practice it the more beautifully you can express it and share it with others. Once your practice is in place, it becomes a habit, which then becomes a way of life.
People appreciate hearing the truth. They may not like it, but they appreciate it much more than a lie.
Once you know your self and can be honest with yourself and all others, you are on the path to true liberation. The Truth does set you free.

The Lionsgate Portal

You may not realize that you are in the middle of a high vibrational energy influx of Light that is helping everyone on this planet shift into higher consciousness. The Lion’s Gate Portal opened on July 26 and closes on August 14th. This happens every year and is an opportunity for each and every one of us to awaken more fully into being our true selves, Divine Beings of Light!
“In order to understand what Lionsgate is all about, it is important to understand what the three cosmic players (Earth, Sun and Sirius) are all doing. For the Lionsgate Portal to be activated, the Sun has to align with the star, Sirius which is bigger and brighter than our own Sun. Sirius is known as the Spiritual Sun, and is believed to hold knowledge and wisdom from higher Divine realms. When the Sun and Sirius meet during this period, their energies intensify and Earth is able to receive “light energy” from both of these celestial bodies.Our Sun is already warm and nourishing enough and delivers the energy of life, but imagine what happens when it combines its powers with Sirius.If we think of this symbolically, it is like planet Earth is being bathed with two of the most powerful lights in the sky. This light energy can enhance spiritual awakenings, bring about new insights or a new awareness and it can also help to raise the consciousness of the planet. It is this highly activated and spiritually advanced energy from these stars that help to activate the portal and send an influx of higher vibrational energy for us to use. The Sun, being in the constellation of Leo which is symbolised by the Lion, is why this star portal is referred to as Lionsgate. We all need to remove the energetic “pollution” from our bodies. This Lionsgate is going to be very healing and cleansing, as long as we allow this energy to filter in. A partial lunar eclipse falls just one day before the Lionsgate portal on August 7th in the sign of Aquarius, and we are all going to be called on to let go, heal and release so we can receive the new.”  (reference: Tanaaz, Forever Conscious)
What this time means is that we have a chance to move our consciousness to the next level, to gain more awareness of who we are and what we desire to create and manifest in our lives. We are now in a very different “new” energy on the earth. We can change more quickly now than ever before, accelerated transformation is available to us. These past five years have been about clearing out the old, dark, stuck patterns of the past that have driven our behaviors from a place of the unconscious. It is hard work but if you have been doing your deep soul level work to clear out the old, then you will feel yourself aligning with the new at a rapid rate.
Remind yourself that you and everybody else is changing all the time. The one constant in life is change. We often make the mistake of categorizing people based on our experiences with them from the past, but by doing this we do ourselves and them a great disservice because we aren’t allowing for the new in them to be realized when we label people and stick them in a box.
To change oneself takes awareness; being aware of what one’s patterns are that aren’t serving them and then excavating the root of the pattern over time to heal the underlying wound. This requires a deep desire and willingness to change. Of course there are many people out there who don’t see what they do isn’t working, or if they see it, they don’t want to do anything about it and they become stuck and will often blame others for their problems. So often people aren’t willing to go back into the original wound because it is too painful to face, so they keep it buried way down below and it continues to fester and fuel unwanted situations over and over again causing great distress. But there are many who are working hard at addressing their unconscious, limited behaviors that usually stem from trauma they’ve experienced at some point in their lives. Keep at it! It can be very challenging and yes, painful to do this, but you’ve got to continually assess your life by taking an honest inventory of what is showing up every day. The important aspect of this hard work is to not judge yourself as you go through this. We are in Earth School and we are here to learn and we learn by making mistakes, by seeing what goes wrong and addressing it. The last thing we need to do is beat ourselves up for learning!  Make the correction without inflicting self-punishment.

To change oneself, beyond the psychological aspect, is the spiritual opportunity which the Lion’s Gate offers is to activate one’s 3rd eye, bestowing greater spiritual sight into the dimensions beyond the physical plane. This means we can increase our intuition and go beyond the mind’s limited perception into the Super Conscious realms where our “all knowing” wisdom lies. To access even a 10th of our super consciousness is a great gift. Be open to let go of old beliefs that aren’t working for you! An open mind is a direct highway to advancing on your path. People hold onto beliefs because they are frightened of letting go of what they “know” to be the truth, lest it cast them into a wavering state of uncertainty where their very mental foundation becomes fragile and unsupportive. Believe me, I have seen the direct results of an ever changing mind and it can feel like insanity at times, but it leads to a place with fewer limitations on oneself as we expand our understanding of the possibilities of our existence and align with greater truth.
The solar plexus chakra will also receive an upgrade to activate one’s personal power center as it is aligned with the will of the Source or the Universe. Feel more confident in your ability to manifest whatever you need in this world!  Call in the abundance and support that is there, waiting for you to tap into it and say, “Everything I desire in The World is available to me!”
All this can happen by being open and allowing yourself to receive the greater vibrations of light energy that are streaming onto the earth and all its inhabitants at this time.  Receive the Light and move into a place of greater harmonious flow with the Oneness of all that is. On August 8th the highest frequencies will be flowing in to upgrade your life in ways that you may have only dreamed about.
The Light is what offers us FREEDOM, freedom from the old, outdated self, freedom from the limiting constructs of the mind, freedom from energetic misalignments that hold us back, freedom from the old, stagnant self, freedom to be the light beings that we are and to live a life that is creative, joyful and grand.

Empowering Your Self

Our true source of power is God, emanating directly from the Divine Center. As we connect with Source, the energy of the Universe, we allow it to run through us like a river, energizing and nourishing our entire being.  Imagine that there is a tube of light like an umbilical cord moving outward from your navel and solar plexus (our power center) and connecting to the Divine Center. Now imagine that the Source energy is spiraling down that tube of light and straight into your solar plexus, filling you with the energy of the Universe. Just like the Sun shines on all the plants on the earth, this energy empowers your Self to grow in alignment with the Creator and direct your will in a way that is positive, healthy and strong to create your soul’s highest expression in this lifetime.
We are all created from God and carry that power within in us from the time we are conceived in the womb. When we are born into the world, we are influenced and shaped by our families and society in whatever form that takes. Depending on your childhood and formative years, you may have been encouraged to own and grow your power, or perhaps you learned unconsciously how to give it away. Depending on your soul’s path in this incarnation and the lessons you came here to learn, you may already know that you are powerful and will spend this lifetime learning how to use your power for good. Often times powerful people will abuse their power and exert control over others for personal gain, causing an imbalance of power by harming others. This is similar to a parasite sucking a supply of energy from their host, where the parasite feeds off of it’s victim to grow bigger, while the victim suffers and becomes weaker. Conversely, if you learn how to use your power for good, you can significantly affect the lives of many people by helping them, perhaps as a service worker, a teacher,  a musician, a writer,  a healer or anyone who encourages, supports and uplifts others with their unique gifts they offer to the world and individually.
If events in your life created the perception within your mind that your power comes from outside of yourself, a pattern may be created where you will constantly be seeking power from external sources, because you believe you lack the power within.  This misaligned belief creates a “lack” mentality, and there will never be enough, and your resources will, at some point always run dry. God will always show you that this is not the truth, that indeed your power resides within you.  It is up to us to interpret the messages and the signs that we have the power not the sources outside of ourselves. It is similar to a potted plant that you need to water when the soil runs dry, the plant is separate from the vast earth. On the other hand a plant that is in the forest will always be able to draw water to sustain its life force energy as it is not separate from the earth.  If you are someone who has not yet learned that your power comes from within, from the God self inside of you, your Spirit Team will be working with you throughout your life to help you access and own your power.
Our power is connected directly to our self-worth and self-esteem. When we own our power, we know our value and our worth and we act accordingly. We are Kings and Queens and we deserve the very best, so that is exactly how we treat ourselves and we attract that into our lives!  When we don’t own or know our power we have a feeling of being less than, of not being enough and that is exactly what we will attract, people, places and situations that mirror that belief, which may be unconscious, so that we are constantly treated less than, and we are wounded by those people and events that show up telling us over and over, you don’t deserve the best, you are not worth it!  Nothing could be farther from the truth, but we need to change that subconscious belief before we can begin to attract the opposite. Once we truly know that we are valuable,  our frequency will change and we will emit a different vibration that will attract those people and situations that show us we are worthy and deserving of the very best that life has to offer.
Through a set of events in my own childhood, when my family fell apart in my early teens, I took on the belief that I was not worthy.  The situation with my family caused me to feel embarrassed and humiliated even though that was my perception and not necessarily the reality or the truth.  I spent years attracting to me situations and people that mirror that belief to various degrees. As a young girl, I learned to give my power away to my Father as he was the one who I believed had all the right answers and knew the way. Subsequently I gave my power away to all the male partners in my life and male authority figures, always believing that they knew better than me, that they were the source of power, that I needed them to provide me with what I felt I was lacking, so that I became dependent on them. I was a victim whose behavior was parasitic, always needing something from someone else. My own will power was diminished and I always sought out men who were controlling to provide direction for me in my life.  This was tied into personal responsibility, (again an unconscious belief ), that if someone else was responsible for the situation because they were in charge of making the decisions, then if it all went belly up, it certainly wasn’t my doing. When we don’t take responsibility for the consequences of our actions, we are bound to repeat them over and over.
Recently, I was in a relationship where the inability to own my power put me into a very harmful situation. The situation was so extreme that I was shown the grave consequence of not owning and knowing my power. Once I realized the truth of what was happening, I left the relationship. I had allowed another to make decisions for me, I compromised my knowing of the truth and put myself into dangerous situations, directly in harms way. Although it was scary and painful, it was ultimately an incredible gift!  After leaving the relationship, I spent time healing, finding that single still point within, the one who knows that truth. I allowed myself to receive support and love from those who genuinely care for me and in this space over time, I came to the realization that the power is and always has been in me, that I am intelligent, strong and capable of providing for and taking care of myself.
I learned that I could trust my own feelings when it came to making decisions in my life. I learned that the source of my power is God, I am safe in God and God never abandons me. I learned how to accept my shadow, and all the parts of me I wanted to deny for fear of what I may think of myself and what others may perceive about me. When we don’t accept all of ourselves, we tend to be judgmental of others, looking down on them and recoiling at the aspects and behaviors that we can not bear to admit we have within ourselves. I learned how to call forth the masculine energy within myself to be my protector, to walk hand in hand with my feminine self in a harmonious way to create balance and situations that would not cause shame, embarrassment and humiliation. I attract people, places and situations that help me on my path, empowering me in my growth. The people who do not support or seek to understand me are being quickly revealed and removed from my path.
I know that I am able to manifest all that I need at any given time and even in the most difficult circumstances, God will always provide for me through myself and others. I had known this before, but had forgotten when I went through 6 consecutive years of challenges and difficulties. But ultimately, all of those obstacles and challenges were forging a stronger foundation within, as I was forced to work with my shadow resulting in a deep, personal transformation.
I learned who my real friends are. I learned to become more discerning of the true intentions of people and to see them for who they are and not who I want them to be. I learned that some people will say they have your best interest at heart, but really, they are only self-serving.  I also learned that some people will go to great lengths to help you back up on your feet, that there are those people out there with huge, generous hearts that will only offer a lending hand with grace and courage. I learned that I AM the Master of my destiny. I am incredibly grateful for these people who have supported me, my family and friends and for the learning experience that has changed my life. I will always know that I only need to look within for the guidance, love and care that resides there and I am whole.
Where in your life are you giving away your power? Were you taught to be a people pleaser? Is it hard for you to say no to people? Do you find yourself over-extended trying to help others? Perhaps you are in a relationship with someone who you are trying to fix, rescue or heal?  Do you believe that your life would be better if only you lived in a house like the one your neighbor owns or if you had a job that paid more money? What we can do for ourselves is look at our lives, just as it is on this day and be grateful. Sit outside each morning with your cup of tea and coffee under a tree for 10 minutes, connect with the Earth and the Sun and just say thank you for what you have just like it is, right now. Spend time in silence and close your eyes and connect with your Spirit Team. You will find a vast Universe of wealth in there, that is where the magic happens. The world that we experience on the outside is created from what happens on the inside, so we have to spend time there, using our intention and attention to seek the treasure that lies within.
Navel / Solar Plexus Exercise:
Take your awareness to your your navel. Sit in a chair in the sun and close your eyes. Now take your awareness to this center in your body, notice if you feel energy moving and if the energy moves outward or inward or perhaps it may feel like it is stuck or blocked, hollow or clogged. Be aware of any sensations or feelings you have in this center. Do not judge them, but write down a few words that pop into your head. Now with your eyes close, relax this area and imagine the Light from the Sun moving through an energetic umbilical cord into your belly button and filling this center as well as your Solar Plexus chakra above the navel. Keep relaxing and breathing in this light until you feel this entire center full of warm, yellow light, while affirming to yourself “God is the Source of my Power, I am Powerful.” Keep repeating this mantra and drawing the Light into your abdominal region until you feel a shift in your energy.
God made each of us from scratch, we are these beautiful beings of eternal light cloaked in a human body. We are so loved!  God made all of us beautiful creatures and gave us the power to create. What are you going to use your power to create?
In Love and Truth,